i do hate you.

salam & hello.

is this what we call dugaan?

i really hate it. sumpah.

asik gado.

asik makan hati.

rasa menyirap2.

i just hate people whom always mendesak.

i really hate dis kind of person.

while on the other hand, he things that i'm so fucking irritating.

while me on the other hand side, i keep on thinking why he become so dem pushy?

why? and why must he become one?

small things can become so fcuking big lately.

here and there arguing.

i really miss our moment before get engage.

always happy.

happy as ever.

now.

everything has change.

change until i'm not sure he is still the same person or not.

here and there is our problems.

i really hate to think that way.

i do love him as always.

but times, situation, environment, always become a new challenge for us.

if it is what we call dugaan bertunang?
sometimes silly things, like jelousy.
irritating have become the biggest player after all.
i hate to think that way.
tp. these things are happen lately.

Ya Rabbi ko jauh kan la segala masalah & sengketa antara kami.

n jgn la kau pisah kan kasih syg antara kami.

jgn la wujud sekelumit rasa kebencian antara kami.

tanam kan la nilai2 kasih syng antara kami.

ampuni lah dosa kami Ya Allah.

semoga Kau teros memberi lindungan & menjadi petunjuk di kala kelam.

AMIN~!

p/s: i do love u. no arguments on that statement.  
missing u.

Salam Aidil Adha

Salam Aidil Adha untuk semua teman2 yg berada dimana jua anda berada.

its been a while till i have ample time to write something in here. the ceremony was cool today. as usual it will started with sembahyang raya's together with all family member's at nearest surau at my place. then salam2 session. follow with eating session. haha. speaking about eating session, so walla and super duper tempting. we are having nasi hujan panas in here, with acar,ayam masak merah, nasi impit, kuah kacang, rendang daging cili api (secret recipe of n9'rians haha! ), roti jala, ciken curry, belah tgh hari, makcik2 anta,briyani gam. ptg pulang got mihun sup (johorean taste), which is sumpah best giler. while desert we have puding buah2 cocktail and also macaroni bakar. penuh dengan makanan yg best2. sampai rasa tataw nk mkn yg mana n which 1. berair mulot2 kawe. haha!

while on the other hand, my beloved mr fiance pulak sebok having kenduri at his house. sgt meriah kt sana. sembelih 17 ekor lembu. gile meriah, and at night pulak his family having some feast at their house. gile dengki! haha! yet deep inside my heart, i'm missing boo! walaupun super dengki with his kemeriahan kenduri kendara. well my side lak dis year kurang meriah skit. memandangkan my grand father, mengadap his mak mertua at segamat. raya sana. so kami his family member neh terkapai2 sikit la. hoho. dulu last time masa arwah nenek ada. time2 cam neh. meriah kot. sume cucu dia akan blik raya. n nenek will wat kenuri and korban lembu session sure ada. lately dah takda sume tuh. last raya haji pon kinda meriah since mok baru blik haji n got kenduri.  hoho.

Speaking about raya haji & aidil adha,  sama lah kita menghayati erti pengorbanan and terkorban. pengorbanan can be seen from different types and lots of views. dari segi pengorbanan ibu bapa, family, and what u have done for your family and friends?  pengorbanan terbesar adalah dari ibu & ayah of cause. dlm membesar kan kami adik beradik sehinggalah menjadi insan yg berguna. and 3 out of 4 of their kids are at university right now. it really shows and will tell you how our mother has sacrifice her life for us in order to raise us. thanks mak n ayah sb besar kan kami adik beradik hingga berjaya la hari ini. not fully berjaya. but its already halfway of it. our journey is still far far far far away. but yet at least with those things of sacrificing that she have done in order to teach and make us a better person today. tak akan di sia-sia kan.  amin. fuh!

hayati lah setiap pengorbanan yg telah dilakukan ibu bapa anda dlm mendidik and membersarkan and utk menjadi insan yg super better in your life. the u will know how precious they are will be. love them, while they are still alive and with you. those moneys won't bring them back when they die. money can't buy mother & father's love at super market. so renung-renung kan and selamat beramal.

(credit to mr google for this cute picture of cow- credit to shazlishots - nice picca)

Salam Aidil Adha untuk semua muslimin & muslimat. dalam begembira marilah kita sama2 hayati keindahan pengertian korban itu sendiri. di sebalik kisah2 Nabi Ismail & Ibrahim. basically, its about parenting. even Nabi pon berkorban untuk anak nye ini kan pula kita sebagai seorang insan yg lemah lgik kerdil di muka bumi Allah swt ini.